Friday, April 13, 2012
3 weeks more to NS.. Hmmm... Don't know to what to feel at all...
After A level results is has been all about uni and uni. Thinking about my future. How to plan for it. Where will I be in 5 years time? Who will I live around in 5 years time? It is really scary.. As I have mentioned in my very few blog posts last year, I really hate change.. I have always believe that it is sufficient to just have a few close friends around you and that is all you need in terms of your social life.. But as I think more about it, I cannot name any friends that I feel truly truly close to now. The emphasis is on NOW. I had amazing memories with all of my close friends.. But those are just memories.. There is nothing substantial that I am building now in terms of friendship.
Yea. Probably I will go NS and have another group of close friends and just enjoy them for the next 2 years. After that? It seems like all my close friends are just friends from one part of my past. Every person or each group represents just one part of my whole 18years.. The feeling of falling into empty space sucks.
I serious dislike it when I rant. I hate people who rant and those people are usually those that I do not want to associate myself with.. I can do things to improve my friendship.. Yea yea. All cliches and I know it works. It is just if I want to do something about it rather than just sit in front of a computer and type...
Really really dislike what I am now. URGH. bye.
Stuffs I painted @ Friday, April 13, 2012
