Monday, June 6, 2011
It has been really really very long since I last blogged and I guess I really do not plan to blog that often..Over the past few months, a lot of things have happened. Hmm..Probably not a lot, just one and it is a major one. It didn't really go as what was desired. Not feeling great about it but since it has happened, what more can I do.The focus now has changed and I really do hope that I won't be failing in that aspect too. Or else I am really a failure in everything. However, the one thing that I do notice is that I have changed. I am not sure what has changed, but something is different about me. This change is really not impacting positively on what I am doing. I do not know what is going on and I am really confused.. =(Probably this is what happens when I feel that I do not have a fixed support system, the fear of just falling into a never-ending black hole scares the hell out of me. That is probably the change that I feel, I am letting the fear of failure and disappointment taking over me. This has caused me to stop or slowed me down in doing things that are suppose to prevent the failure and disappointment. It is just 'All fear but no action' and it really sucks. Do not know what I am going to do to make myself stand up and really run towards my future. I am clear of my goals, but the fear of not reaching them is really becoming a big obstacle as I grow older and older. Haiz. What to do? Any suggestions?
Stuffs I painted @ Monday, June 06, 2011
